gao yu xiiang

2011-02-28T01:41:00.000+08:00

I HAVE MOVED

http://www.samsonaxel.blogspot.com

2011-02-19T16:48:00.002+08:00

well, new blogskin still not done.
nothing much to update tho.
life is pretty much meaningless.
there's tension everywhere and it sucks
my school friends, my relationship, my close friends.
everything.

i need a new space for me to rant and write my thoughts.
babyboy has a new blog which is under construction.
should i make one too? uhhhh.

exams coming up. /: life sucks.

2011-01-25T23:17:00.001+08:00

it's been a long long time since i've last updated.
with that, two months have passed, so has my 18thbirthday.
nothing much happened since.
i'm inspired to start blogging actively again.
but first, my blog needs revamping.
shall blog again when i have everything ready :D

2010-11-30T01:39:00.002+08:00

well, i haven't been blogging for a long long time.
i mean, life haven't been very kind to me either.
i really don't understand why life is so fucking cruel.
i really hoped that everything would be fine. but apparently, it isn't. and never will be. i don't think anyone visits this space anymore so i think it should be quite private over here.
my love life is a mess. i really tried and tried so hard but nothing would ever work.
my babyboy. i love you so much. but i guess you'll never change. not for me, not for anyone. i've put in so much effort to mould you into the person that i would deem to be the best boyfriend in the world. but i guess that's not the way things work. i should never have tried to change you in the first place. you have all the rights to contact all the different people you meet or get to know of each day and i have no right to stop you. this is your life, not mine. i should really stop being such a nosy parker and mind my own business. because ignorance, is indeed a bliss. but i would just have to live a lie instead. i thought that i would rather know the truth in everything and have always demanded that from you. i don't know how many times you have lied to me, and i don't really care. but i just want you to know that i truly love you. true love? that's a lie too. looking at my own parents, it just shows me how fragile love can be. i thought that we were strong enough to pull through any difficulty. but i am wrong. again. i just hope that i could muster up all my courage and ask you for a breakup. but no. i am not that strong.and so i keep tolerating and tolerating. and i am suffering so much deep down. but do you understand any of that? i don't think so. you tell me that you've been trying to change. but where are the results? i cannot say that you've not changed at all through this 1year and 5 months. but isit enough? day by day, i feel myself getting weaker. and i don't know how much more of this betrayal i can withstand.i have told myself umpteen times to trust you with all my heart. but time and again, i am disappointed by your actions and lies. if you don't love me, i would appreciate it if you tell me straight to my face. and not play around with my heart like as if i wouldn't feel anything. you have said sorry multiple times too. but how many times have you really meant it? everytime i quarrel with you, i reflect upon myself and i try to change. i try to accommodate. but i don't see this going anywhere. i want to cry. so badly. but the tears aren't coming out.give me time baby, in time to come, you'll get your freedom back. you can return to your old ways again.nobody will try to restrain you. you will be able to go out with your friends for all you want, you'll be able to meet up with random guys you meet online for all you want. is that all that you want? i showered you with all my love. i've tried to pamper you with all the gifts. but it's never enough for you is it? i love you but i have to go. this will be the best for both of us.only now,that tears are starting to roll down my cheeks, i'm having mixed feelings. i'm happy, and i'm sad.on the first page of our story, the future seemed so bright. i hoped that the last page would shine too but i doubt so. live your life the way you want and i wish that god will bless you in everything that you do.only time will tell. iloveyou babyboy.and i don't want to be a broken hearted boy.

2010-08-29T21:25:00.002+08:00

kay, i knw i suck. in every single way.

as a son,
as a grandson,
as a nephew,
as a brother,
as a boyfriend,
as a cousin,
as a student,

AS A PERSON.

i tried and tried so hard.
people don't see it.
they never see the good in you.
but when things go bad, all they blame is YOU.
and by you, i mean ME. and every other person who feels
like me.

it's not until today that i realise that things can never go my way forever.

i've caused my aunt to spend way too much money,
i've caused my parents to wonder why they even gave birth to me,
i've caused my sisters to hate me for whatever mistakes i've made,
i've caused my cousin to lose her freedom,
i've caused my boyfriend to lose his freedom, his family, his studies and even his friends.
i've caused more than enough trouble for my teachers.

and most importantly,i've caused myself a life.
to whoever i may have failed, i'm utterly sorry.
but one person i have to say a bigbig sorry to,
is MYSELF.

i've done so many things in life that i regret.
i always point fingers.
i am egoistic.
i am selfish.

but all i want is some happiness.
i know that people around me loves me a lot. ; even too much.
but i just don't feel it. i don't fking know what the fuck is wrong with myself.

sometimes, i do certain things to prove myself.
to prove that i'm not just a weakling.
but in the course of doing that, i hurt others.
and i am genuinely sorry.

haven't been feeling good the whole day.
i tried to cheer myself up. i feel guilty for what has happened.
making people hate me is the last thing i wanna do.
but i think i just made someone i looked upon as a sister detest me so much.
so what if i have realised my mistakes? it's all too late now.
i've done so many things to make my sisters hate me.
but time and again, they've tried to tolerate my unruly behaviour.

i take advantage of people to make myself happy.
like my aunt. she is the person who treats me the best in this world
apart from my late grandfather.but i treat her like shit.
i don't appreciate the things that she's done for me and i just
keep getting money from her.i don't treasure her love for me and my
attitude towards her is so bad.

and my parents.hah,i should be struck by lightning.
after so long, i finally had a chat with my mum.
but all she told me was the troubles my father was facing at work
and at home. she told me that he was so stressed that he even cried
himself to sleep. my father, the strong man that i know.
cry? he cried not only because of work. but because of me as well.
i thought that his love for me was lost long ago and he couldn't be bothered
by my existence.but i guess i was wrong, again.

only then, that i realise how stupid i am.

and to my very best cousin. one move caused her a year of freedom.
all because of me. my over-confident self. i had to drag someone down
with me didn't i? how selfish can u get SAMSON GAO YU XIANG?
i hate you.

lastly, sorry baby. for controlling you so much,
for being so dominant.so stubborn,
so hurtful with the words i've used,
so sacarstic, so insensitive.

so to everyone out there whom i've ill treated before,
here's a sorry.

no amount of counselling/psychiatric sessions will be able to help me.
i hate myself, and that's that.

crying does help.
good night people, i still have school tomorrow.

2010-06-02T00:47:00.000+08:00

2010-05-28T17:14:00.003+08:00

happy 300 days baby,
and coincidentally this is my number 300 post
on this blog.

babe,the things that we've went through
is more than a lot of couples our age i must say.
the commitments, the trust, the love.
although we've been together for barely
a year, it seems like forever.
and i cherish every moment spent in your embrace.
you bring me absolute joy.
my life would really suck without u.
not to mention the quarreling parts.
i totally hate to squabble with u.
that feeling sucks.so i'll like to keep it that way.
that we stop quarreling as often.
u know that i love you boy. :)
so this post is dedicated to you.
lets work hard together towards our forever.

I LOVE YOU, jeffreyNYJ <3

2010-05-14T21:04:00.002+08:00

hey ya'll, sorry for th lack of updates.

school's been rather hectic and i just
cannot find th time to blog.well,
a major test is coming up and i am still
not prepared yet.i'm kinda stressed already.

i must mention this. ITE life is not any
easier or simpler than JC/POLY.
because i have people coming to me asking
if i'm having a very relaxing time in ITE.
and th answer is NO.

so anyway, school is still EFFING AWESOME.
although clique has become smaller,
i believe/think that our relationships are
getting a way lot better :))

my life have been about school,boyfriend,school,boyfriend.
school includes my friends luh. HAHAAHAHAH.
yea.so that about it. my last one month was spent in this manner.
and point to note. * I HAVEN'T TOUCHED THIS LAPTOP FOR 3 WEEKS*
hahahs.however,i have loads of peektures to upload. :)
tata for naowsssss.

2010-04-24T18:49:00.003+08:00

i knw i knw.
my blog is fking dead and boring.
i'm fked sian right now too.
baby's ice-skating,
tingsis is sleeping,
more than half of my SATURDAY
is wasted with me rotting/nua-ing at home.
cheebyes. hmms,
i'm gon like fking crash.
so anw,

I'VE GOT A NEW TV!
APPARENTLY MY PAPA
THOUGHT THAT HE SHOULD PAMPER HIMSELF
ON HIS 51ST BIRTHDAY THAT HE GOT THE
42INCH FLAT-SCREEN HI-DEF TV! LOLS,
CRAZY MAN.
BUT I'M ENJOYING THE
ENLARGED FACES OF PEOPLE! HAHAHAS.

AIYA.
i'm gon go prepare alr! baby will be done soon.
hope that it'll be a good night. ;)

2010-04-20T23:05:00.003+08:00

school has been amazing over th past week.
friends were made. :)
and i joined volleyball.
probably gonna sign up for th NYAA thingy.
[national youth achievement award]

practical lessons are extremely fun.
and i'm really lovin the time spent in school.
i have never felt this way about school to be honest.
i mean,primary sch sucked,sec sch sucked.
but ITE rocks? hahahs, like seriously.
lecturers are wonderful.
classmates are great.
heehee. i shall let the pics do th talking.
tata for naowszx..

2010-04-17T17:12:00.003+08:00

and so, school has started for me.

and i didn't know that it would actually be this much FUN :)

lotsa interesting personalities and all.

in conclusion,

i love ITE <3.

at least up till this point. hahahs

2010-04-12T05:30:00.007+08:00

this pretty much sums up our first day. :)

more pictures to be uploaded.so stay tuned.

HAHAHAHA.

2010-04-10T21:05:00.003+08:00

hi ya'll! i'm back from GENTING! hahahas.

had lotsa fun but well,being back = fucked.

hahahas,i mean...y'know.y'know.

so anyway,

our 3 days 2 nights trip

became 4 days 3 nights.

we simply loved genting too much! hahas.

well,i'll cut short on the words

and move on to some

much valued pictures :))

2010-04-05T13:28:00.002+08:00

this will be my last blog post for the next few days.
leaving for genting tomorrow. whether ya'll are going or not,
i'll be. hmms,things are kinda screwed right now.

don't know if one wants to go,th other doesn't want to go
the first isn't going,another hasn't got his passport from his
parents and they got into a major fight just th night before.
and the last just sits and wait all ready,bag packed.

hope that everything turns out fine.i'm going out now.
bye people.

GENTING!!

2010-04-03T23:22:00.003+08:00

SO IT'S BEEN DECIDED.

WE'LL BE HEADING TO GENTING

ON TUESDAY-THURSDAY.

BABY,ME,TINGSIS,TERENCE. :):)

RATHER EXCITED BECAUSE I HAVEN'T

BEEN TO GENTING IN LIKE MORE THAN 10 YEARS?

HAHAHS,SO ANYWAY,I'M DESPERATELY TRYING

TO SAVE MONEY NOW.BUT CHEEBYE TEMPTATIONS

ARE ALWAYS THERE TO KILL.

LIKE FUCKING CIGGS.

ALSO DUNNO WHY SO EXPENSIVE.HAHAHAS,

WHATEVER,I'M JUST GONNA HAVE LOTS AND LOTS

OF FUN,AWAY FROM KNNBCCB SINGAPORE.

HEEHEE, SHALL UPDATE WITH SOME PICTURES.

happy 8th monthsary.

2010-04-02T00:00:00.001+08:00

wow,time really flies doesn't it?

it's been EIGHT months of ups and downs

for baby and i.and it's also been a very amazing

journey.i've learnt a lot from this relationship.

i think that this post will be a rather lengthy one

so bear with me.it's 1047pm now.and i will publish

this post only after 0000am.

well,babyboy.

this is for you.

;i know i'm not from a very rich family,

and i cannot provide you with whatever you want.

but here's a promise.i will bring you somewhere

halfway around the globe by th end of th year.

i promised you bangkok but due to certain circumstances,

we were unable to make it.our taiwan trip last year was also

cancelled due to my excessive spending.

but no more this time,i'll bring you somewhere to

totally enjoy..

i will save as much money i can just for you.

you are special to me.my one and only true love.

although 8 months isn't very long,it isn't short either.

and the love that we made and we have will forever

be in my heart.i cannot promise forever.

but i will give it my all.because for you,

i have the greatest love of all :)

and i'm currently working on a song for you.

hahahas,i may be a lousy songwriter.

i don't know.shall see how it turns out.

well my dear, you are the person i worry about the most.

how i wish that i can see you in every hour,minute or second.

now,i'm left with another 30 mins to blog.

i'm so filled with thoughts that i can hardly

make out any words.

i'm thinking of you darling.

no matter what's happened before

or what's gonna happen in the future,

i loved you and i still am loving you.

i have nothing if i don't have you.

'some people want it all,

but i don't want nothing at all.'

because all that i want is you.

i wanna see a whole new world with you.

and if i had you,my life would be a party it'll be ecstacy.

well,all i wanna say is,

I LOVE YOU.

HAPPY EIGHT MONTHSARY BABYBOY. NG YI JIE

i absolutely love my camera.

2010-03-30T18:04:00.005+08:00

OKAY,SO I HAVEN'T BEEN VERY LUCKY THESE FEW WEEKS.

I FELL TWICE,MAKING ME LOOK LIKE A TOTAL HANDICAP

WHEN I WALK.MY KNEE IS HURT,AND MY TOE IS HURT.

BETTER STILL BOTH ON THE SAME LEG! LUCKY MUCH?

HAHAHAHA.

TWO WEEKS AGO :

NOW :

IT STILL HURTS LIKE FUCK OKAY?

HAHAHAHAS,AND HERE COMES MY TOE.

I REALLY HAVE TO BLOG MORE OFTEN MAN.

I KNOW MY LIVE IS BLOODY BORING.BUT

AT LEAST SOME PEOPLE ARE INTERESTED SOMEHOW?

AND SO, I'VE BEEN ENROLLED IN ITE.

NITEC IN PASTRY AND BAKING :):)

I'VE ALWAYS LOVED TO BAKE.HAHAHAS, NEVER KNEW RIGHT?

I SHALL BECOME A WONDERFUL PASTRY CHEF IN THE FUTURE!

AND SO,SCHOOL WILL BE STARTING IN 2 WEEKS FOR ME.

AND THAT = TO ; END OF MY PARTYING WAYS AND ENJOYMENT.

A LITTLE DUMB RIGHT? BUT PEOPLE HAVE TO SLOW DOWN

EVENTUALLY AND THINK ABOUT THEIR FUTURE.

AND THAT'S JUST WHAT I'M GONNA DO.

AIN'T THE CAPS A LITTLE IRRITATING? HAHAS.

went to find PIAOJIE at commonwealth where she worked

on sunday.so i missed dionna's birthday party.

but we had fun though,just slacking and eating,and eating.

hahas.so anyway she's in GENTING now, hope she's having

fun :) and that she's gon get something for me! hahaha.

you are missed. HAHAHAHAH

CLUBSHIT.

2010-03-26T16:43:00.005+08:00

clubbing is indeed getting BORING.

people always say it's not about th music.

but it's about th company tht you're with.

that's so utterly WRONG.even with th

AWESOMEST company around,

and th music sounds like FART,

it actually doesn't help one bit! hahahahas.

and so we skipped PLAY last night.

when i say we, i mean [meisis,tingsis,baby and i]

we were kinda tired with th scene,

and people there are getting lesser.

;if you knw wht i mean that is.

dinner with family earlier on.

-----------------------------

we headed on to play L4D2 at princep.

1DOLLAR/HOUR only siolxzs.

and that totally turnedmeoff.

i mean L4D.it makes me puke sometimes.

no idea why.sucks luh :))

next, our favourite destination of all time.

MUSTAFA SHOPPING CENTRE.

machiam become our house already.

spent 3 hours there and headed home.

okay,and i need to rant.

I AM FUCKING FAIR. knnbccb!!

well,it's time i put more photos to my posts.

2010-03-24T02:03:00.003+08:00

okay,so i haven't been updating in a while.

that's because of my busybusy partying life!

clubbed three times just last week.

bloody tired man! and got drunk on saturday.

major disaster.hahas,so anyway,

i have a lot of pictures to post.

so much so that it'll probably be too long.

so,i'll just extract some veryvery nice pictures to post la.

i just got a haircut+dye 2 days back and

I'M LOVIN IT. :)

& FISH AND CO WITH HY AND BABY IS LOVED. <3
tata for now.
will blog again soon,

2010-03-16T14:32:00.003+08:00

haven't been blogging for a few days

but now i'm back! hahas,
so any way,

ONE MAJOR NEWS!

I GOT A NEW CAMERA! FROM THE IT FAIR

HELD AT SUNTEC CONVENTION HALLS!

IT'S RED,IT'S SAMSUNG,AND IT'S GREAT!

the offer was amazing.i was selling at 300dollars

but the price was cut down to 239!with lotsa free goddies.

-2 batteries

-2 memory cards [8GB]

-cleaning kit

-mini tripod

-camera case.

how AWESOME RIGHT?be sure to check out the next IT fair.

the last day would be good to get best prices but beware

of the crowd involved! it was extremely packed ttmttm!

so now i can finally blog with pictures without

having to wait for people to send them to me!

okay,now to show ya'll how amazing my new BABY is!

2010-03-13T04:25:00.002+08:00

herstory on thursday was bored.
i'm not feeling very good right now
because of somethings that have been happening.
had a major quarrel with baby last night.
and just when i thought everything was alright alr,
something like that had to happen..
i'm so depressed right now.
anyway, i love my babyboy.
i will be here for you forever my dear.
see you soon :)

2010-03-11T03:54:00.003+08:00

it's 4 a.m now and i'm not sleeping.

i'm waiting for baby to wake up.

and while doing that,i shall blog.

IKEA TODAY and we had lots of fun!

went there with tingsis and baby.

to have the swedish meatballs.

all i can say is YUM-YUM! but something unhappy did happen.

i shall not eleborate here because i'm not feeling very well now either.

but anyway,i don't wanna dampen any moods.

herstory tomorrow but i don't have any mood to go out.

either way, here are some pictures ;

youknwthatiloveyouboy,pleasedonotlietome

backasfriends.

2010-03-08T21:23:00.002+08:00

okay,so the whole drama-mama thingy is over.
and so,i officially APOLOGIZE to NAOMI for
being rude or mean or whatsoever because of
a small misunderstanding.so yea.

i don't really have anything much to blog about today.
yesterday was a total bore.i met baby in town just to have
dinner and he went home after that,while i went over
to tingsis's place.we discussed about the trip to THAILAND.
and decided that we'll be going with christy :)

and baby wanted to surprise me so he went to my place
not realising that i was at my cousin's house.how silly right?
hahas,so we cabbed over to yewtee MACDONALDS to
buy TWENTY-PIECE-NUGGETS. at 2a.m;FATTENING MUCH?
when we finished eating,tingsis called naomi and they sorta quarreled
for a bit then talked things through.so i guess we're good?

and i have an interview tomorrow for my ITE course.
excited! hahas, will update again in time to come :)
meanwhile, BYEBYE

2010-03-07T15:21:00.004+08:00

so here i am, blogging again.

i just woke up not long ago and is still feeling a tad drowsy.

i went out with a very ROJAK group of people yesterday.
i met baby with his school friends at LIDO first, and headed

to fareast plaza.after which,they whanted to proceed to cathay

for dinner so i left them.i went to join my fav;PIAOJIE. with

rachael,maggie and natasha/cutelilgirlwho'solderthanme.

and then miss SOON came, with faith,Y jiamin, doreen.

hahas,imagine we walked around the whole of FAREAST in

sucha big group?

then rachael got her hair braided.it was awesome.

too bad i don't have a photo to show.should learn

how to do that sometime.so anyway,

we headed to princep for L4D.just

me,xy,D,R. the rest went off.we barely played

for an hour and miss CHONGyp came over,

BABY came to find me too.with TERENCE.

they two really look like twins man.period.

D,R had to leave for home so we sent them to take a cab

and we headed to macs as ping wanted to eat.HAHA,

slacked there and saw some people i didn't really want to

see.ETO much?horhor* denise.wahlao.

i still waved and said HI know? nvm.let it be luh.

so fucked DAO for what?no meaning.

then it got so FREAKING sian that xy and ping wanted to go off

also.and baby was still playing l4d,so i was left alone for a while.

and that PIG.wahlao.sleepsleepsleep.ya'll should knw who i'm talking bout.

so yea,we then went over to DHOBY GHAUT GREEN.

and climbed to th roof.hoping we won't get caught by

any security personel or worst still,POLICE.lol.

we slacked there till 2 a.m and then we sent TERENCE

to the bus stop.the bus took damn long to come i swear.

after that,baby and i went to catch ALICE IN WONDERLAND

at theCATHAY.it was awfully boring but at the same time very

interesting. a 3stars for it.

that pretty much sums up my saturday. :)

and as usual,pictures;

i'm heading out soon to meet baby.

he's studying in town :)

fuckedhangover

2010-03-05T13:18:00.004+08:00

maxwell-ed with tingsis last night.
went to HOLIDAY INN-ATRIUM near ZOUK
and bought a 750ml CHIVAS.
i must say that it's super CHEAP!
34 dollars with 2 free 1.5litre mixers.
and the AUNTY there is super friendly.
offered us biscuits.EVERYONE SHOULD BUY THERE!
hahas,like a free advertistment only.LOLS.
actually,i do have some pictures but they are all in
tingsis's camera.i really should get one for myself soon!

so anyway,we went into PLAY at 2a.m.
i'm not gonna CLUB so often already.it's getting real bored.
i'm not like some despo who wants to club practically every
single day.

back to yesterday.after PLAY,we went to my girlfriend's house.
she was so kind to cook noodles for me.we stayed on till this morning
and met her MUM.she's damn cute too.HAHA,so silly.
so i'm now at home, sitting on the TOILETBOWL, blogging.
i've been having a tummy upset since just now.
now i know hangovers are not fun.had too much last night.
we were the only ones drinking [tingsis and i] and we
almost finished the whole freaking thing.any idea how much that is?
hahaha,but i had 7 cups,and her,2.she was fking drunk i tell you.
keep telling me that she's a TOE-MAY-TOE! hahahs,so yea.
and i shall end this post with a picture of vainpot ME!

MAMA's FIFTYFIRST.

2010-03-04T02:21:00.004+08:00

we had dinner at this coffee shop in CLEMENTI.

and the food wasn't too fantastic. acceptable though.

no idea why my family were all praises about the food.

well,i had an effing full dinner. :)
afterwhich,i met up with tingsis and meisis and together

with my sister,i bought a COFFEE CAKE to surprise my mom

at home.i must say that it was a pleasant surprise.

and i was the one who came up with the idea.

iknwiknw, i had tons of quarrels with them and i don't

really even give a shit about my parents.

but birthdays are special..well,except for mine that is.

i was happy that baby came eventually.eventhough

his parents disallowed. :)and so,i have pictures to share.

and then we went to slack and had supper at yewtee MACS :)

then tingsis and baby cabbed home.

anyway,i'm going out right now.for a jog with ting and mei sisses. if there's even such a word.hahas,bye people. :)

2010-03-03T15:00:00.004+08:00

i'm here to update about my MONTHSARY CELEBRATION. :)

it was a blast. at least to ME ,but i sincerely hope that BABY had
as much fun as i did :)) the dinner was awesome but th desserts
sorta sucked.except for the durian ones which i were not allowed
to eat too much because,my SUPERBALLBOY hates durian.
TOO MUCH DURIAN = NO KISSING.

hahahahahs,so anyway,

i wanted to borrow a camera from either ;
MISS WOON LI TING OR MISS TAN SIOK YIT.
but it happens that miss woon was sleeping,and miss tan was out.
in situations as such,i have no choice but to utilise my iPhone camera :)
and the movie was AWESOME.but had a total anti-climax when baby fell asleep/:
owell.

and so,that marks the end of our 7thmonth together.anyway,i'm going out now to celebrate my mother's 51 st birthday.THAT OLD BITCH. hahahas, happy birthday LAOBU!shall update soon enough.but till then,tata for now :) takecare ya'll

2010-03-02T16:45:00.002+08:00

HEY YA'LL,
i'm getting ready to go out.
meeting my dear boy in town. :)
our 7thmonthsary date to be exact.
i've made reservations for dinner at
HOTEL RENDEZVOUS :))

gonna rush down to town to get tickets for
VALENTINES DAY. i know it's kinda old alr.
but since i didn't win th ALICE IN WONDERLAND
nuffnang contest thingy,i figured valentines day would
be nice as well.hope he doesn't come to my blog.
HAHAs, he's in school anyway.
and i know i'm damn lousy,i owe him his
VALENTINES present.and so,
i will make it up to him by
paying for our trip to THAILAND in march.
i have to start saving big time.and hope that
some kind souls will donate some money to me.
it is, and will be all worth th while.

i love you baby. and a bigbig

HAPPY S E V E N T H MONTHSARY :)

SIBEITIRED.

2010-03-01T22:41:00.011+08:00

i'm super worn out right now.

feeling damn lethargic but i figured i should blog first before crashing.in about an hours time,it'll be my 7thMONTHSARY with babyjeffrey.time really does fly doesn't it.endless quarrels and make-ups.well,it's been a long journey but we're still going strong.although there are times when i feel all left alone.maybe because he has school and all i do is to stay home all day.i mean,it's already MARCH.almost a quarter of this year is already gone.and speaking about not doing anything, i literally mean it that way. :)) hopefully i get into my desired ITE course.if not,life will really suck.enough of meaningless rantings.i've got pictures to upload.

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had a random KTV session at Kbox CINELEISURE with tingsis and babyboy.sang lots of ultra challenging songs comprising singers like BEYONCE,KELLY CLARKSON, MARIAH CAREY, AVRIL LAVIGNE, CELINE DION, LADY GAGA, and legendary KING-OF-POP, MJ ;)had loads of fun but vocals were strained to the maximum.we even took some videos. extreme unglamness shall be displayed on YOUTUBE soon enough. HAHA,and with that,i have some pictures to share.

was actually trying to show my new braces colours[pink and purple],but to no avail.hahahs,i had fun today.i hope tomorrow will be a BLAST.

goodnight world,i gotta crash.

2010-03-01T08:25:00.012+08:00

and so this is my new BLOGSKIN ;)

and it also marks a new beginning.i'll try to update my blog as often as possible from now on.i've nothing much that intrests me in life anyway.

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so anyway,yesterday was a rather traumatic day for me.quarreled with him.but talked things through.he cried i cried.what th hell are tears fr anyway.it's getting bored in here. :) i shall entertain ya'll blog readers with some cam-whoring proof. HAHAHAbeen thinking of doing something with my alr defunkitated hair.

probaby gonna get it dyed or something.

my babyboy has a new blog. weirdpeopleloves.tumblr.com :)

2010-02-27T18:36:00.003+08:00

YEA,I SHOULD PROBABLY UPDATE MY BLOG MORE OFTEN.

since there are people coming to view and read.hahas,
the whole episode is over.but there are no conclusions.well,i don't really give a fuck. :)
we tried so hard and all you do is shit.thinking that you're so important and
we can be juggled around by you.if you really think so,you are so not simple.
like we've always thought your were.the most scheming and cunning one
would be you.but i hope that it's otherwise.if not it'll be your loss ultimately,
not ours.or maybe you're indeed brainless.as innocent and idiotic as a child is.
either or,i've given up already.

and if anyone has already realised,there are some faggotic people with nothing
better to do with their lives trying to spam limpei's tag board.i don't even feel
a pinch,whatever those tags were intended for.i feel entertained,by certain people's
mere stupidity.gag at my jokes people.just laugh at the replies i will give those
goodfornothingfreaks.

i've got nothing against anyone.except for maybe some *special cases involving
people like KONGLONGMEI.hahahahahas,this is hilarious.i love making myself
laugh.and so do some people love to make me laugh.thanks MAN. get it?
hahahas.

so anyway,i enjoyed yesterday.A LOT.
gathering at miss PHUA's house was a bore.
but we had things to talk about,gossip about,laugh about.
[a particular person's HAIR.] hahahas.
had lots to catch up.although i feel rather inferior
cos all my ex-classmates are going to poly. :)

after miss phua's place, we went to HILARY's house after
a long debate on where to go.we cabbed over from CCK to LIMBANG.
there were [ME,EUNICE,ANA,HILARY,SHARLYN,SL,EMILY,HUICI]
i'm always the only guy.with a large group of girls.hahahs
and so,we had a mahjong session which cost me 6 dollars.
and then steamboat and BLACKJACK where i recouped my
losses by 2 dollars.

met tingsis at around 1 am and we went to this multi-storey
carpark to sing.hahas,it was fun.although we eventually decided to
proceed to town.met my *DEAR(punt intended) and went home at around 5 am
to meet BABY.my poor boy was sleeping at the basketball court waiting for me.
i was so guilty.hmms,there are things which i shall not eleborate here. :)

so yea,that's probably everything that has been happening to me.
and if anyone wants to amuse me further,please do.
be my guest. :) my tagboard is for public usage anyway what.

nuffnang blogging contest; ALICE IN WONDERLAND.

2010-02-25T03:46:00.006+08:00

my favourite character is definitely ;THE MAD HATTER

adapted from :http//:adisney.go.com/disneypictures/aliceinwonderland

;THE MAD HATTER doesn't just wear his heart on his sleeve.his ever-changing moods are quite literally reflected in his face and his attire.he's been anxiously awaiting Alice's return and is arguably her one true friend,believing in her when nobody else does.he is fearless,going to great lengths to protect her at his own risk.Once the proud hat maker for the White Queen,The Hatter has been affected my mercury poisoning, an unfortunate side effect of the hat-making process, and isn't altogether well.

-personal views;

i'm am deeply attracted by the MAD HATTER's character.it's so intriguing yet fascinating.so capricious yet steadfast.He is just the kind of character i would love to see in the movies.The story seems surreal defying logic.

his appearence is another important factor that enchants me.

-the unruly mop of FLAMING RED HAIR
-the outrageous design of his perculiar TOP HAT
-the over the top MAKE-UP;reminiscent of a doleful circus clown

i am so engrossed in the story it almost SCARES me.the suspense and tension is just too AMAZING.the plot is wonderful with a SPLENDID cast . I believe that it will turn out to be a MAGNIFICENT motion picture.

Catch Alice in Wonderland Movie starting from 4th March 2010 and join the official Facebook and Twitter page!

KONG LONG MEI

2010-02-23T17:02:00.019+08:00

it's been a while since i blogged.

and quite a lot of things have been happening.

lotsa drama and fun :)

i don't like it when ppl gang up.

it just isn't right.but it's none of my business what right?

we'll just need people of higher authority to control

situations as such.if not,it's always outta control.

what's th point really?standing by th side,i feel

amused,or rather,disgusted by some despicable actions made.

th conflict will never end.so what if one side is beaten up and lost

the fight?th hatred is still there and they will come back stronger

and more revengeful.no point fighting over small little peanuts

kinda issues..

shall stop here.don't wanna be looked upon as choosing sides.

well,i've been having fun with baby,tingsis and meisis.

last week was a blast except for YOUKNWWHT happened.

anw,this will eventually turn out to be a very long hate post.

ya'll will know what it is at the end.

threathened,agonised,stressed,depressed,assulted,broken nail,what else? HAHA.

for those who even care to know,i have enrolled for ite.
hopefully i can get my desired course.
= early childhood education
= hospitality

and while doing that,i will retake my o levels.
so if i can do well enough in my o levels, i will boycott ite
and join poly in 2011 hahas :))

for my 3 o level credits currently, i have 10 points.
my target is 15 for 5 subjects.
considering to retake my MATH as well.
so this is probably my plan of the year?
as well as my new year resolution. 2009 sucked. but i believe tht 2010 will be better!

so anyway, this post is for you miss NAOMI HO LI HWA.
if your tweet last night was meant for me, u have just added a hater on
the list of already so many people.stop thinking that you understand me
a lot when in fact,you know shit about me.you know why KIM hates u so much
now?because you like to act as if you know everything. and ykw?
you are a gazillion times more irritating or annoying than that fucking ORANGE is.
all you do now is to CLUB AND CLUB AND CLUB. might as well move into POWERHOUSE?

yes i know it's not exactly your fault that FABIAN is hanging out with you which makesKIM thinks that you are stealing her BESTFRIEND.but the point is,you like to go powerhouse on straight nights and we all don't except for fabian.and talking about that,you're not even LEGAL.even when i go to PLAY,i take extra precautions and i don't ARGUE with the person in charge.you always put yourself at the top of the world thinking that everyone must listen to you.talking about the other time at ZIRCA,you were the one who was DILLY-DALLYING and made everyone late.plus when u realised that kim was angry,you did nothing,and when i told you to chip in some money for her, you gave me that FUCKEDup-FACE of yours.and I,being with her the whole time, gave her 2BUCKS and you, nothing at all.why so STINGY?i BROKE UP with you by means of BLOGGING,so i can jollywell BREAK MY FRIENDSHIP with you using the same method.your arrival meant the depletion of our friendship,we really HAD FUN in the beginning, that i cannot deny.but at time passed,you become more and more of an OBSTACLE!

everytime we cabbed,we had to find one who can accomadate 5 people,ONE OF WHICH IS HUMONGOUS.even FABIAN disliked that about you!you see,everywhere you go,it's like that.and it will never change.it's not much about your appearence but more of your ATTITUDE. it sucks.you just wait,you are having fun with becky,jared,fabian, or whoever, in time to come,that relationship will sour as well.just like when you used to tell me about VANESSA,CYNTHIA they all.we could have been great friends if it wasn't for you being SUCH A BITCH.

well,anyway, if that tweet was indeed for me, let me tell you straight ON MY BLOG, you are way more GROSS than i am and will ever be.you SUCK BALLS so badly and you turn people OFF.i've been trying to control my criticisms of you to the minimal but you just like to push my limits and test my patience don't you? AND YOU LOVE TO HANG-UP PHONE CALLS WITHOUT SAYING BYE OR WHATSOEVER RIGHT ? i will do just that to you in the future. and the other time at seletar airbase, YOU PAID THE LEAST BUT ATE THE MOST. gobbling and gulping up most of the chicken wings,even stealing some from my beloved BABYBOY. you really do suck badly luh.YOU REALLY DO.and it's not just chicken wings.you eat=SWALLOW/GOBBLE. almost everything in this world.you should try SHIT sometimes.

and talking about you not being legal,you always try to borrow I/C from my cousins or friends.when they say NO[in the most polite manner], there you are with your favourite action.KUP.2.2.2.2.2.2.HOW IMPOLITE can you actually get?you disgust me badly. so badly i'm feeling SICK right now.The other time at Kbox,you literally held onto the microphone for HOURs and you still complained that you sang very little.you kept pushing up your songs and continually kept singing with that EVER-SO-AWFUL VOICE OF YOURS.AMUSINGBUTDOWNRIGHTABOMINABLE. why are you being such a DESPERADO?despo for FOOD,FRIENDS,CLUB,and every other thing under the SUN :)) and now lets talk about your appearence.i know i'm not EXTREMELY HANDSOME or what.but at the very least, i look more ADEQUATE than you do.

[THESE REPORTEDLY SMELL] AND YES YOU FORCED ME.you are so fat,the scientists are considering to use you to cover up the hole in the ozone layer.and when you stand on the weighing scale,my PHONE NUMBER POPS OUT.you see,i can use YO'MAMA jokes on you.get a grip of yourself and brace yourself for ULTIMATE HATRED FROM ME.when i hate someone, the person probably dies.not as in literally,but why am i even bothering to explain to u?LOLS,shall end here. :)

hope you DIE READING.and yea,YOU THINK YOUR ENGLISH IS SO FUCKED AMAZING RIGHT?shut up will you,BELOVED KLM. kong long mei to be exact[DINOSAUR GIRL]. you are such a pain in the ass.and you are officially hated by me.CONGRATULATIONS>

2010-02-17T14:56:00.001+08:00

fuck angry with my blog skin.
spent 1 whole night to create and edit it.
now,i dun't know why i can't link other ppl.
it's like : !@#$%^&*()
extremely angry.
sorry nicole dear, can't link u.
i will when i find a solution :))

2010-02-05T17:17:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling so fucked now.
one side this knnbccb person dunwanna answer my phone calls.
the other side this friend suddenly tells me to stop contacting.
so who am i left with now?
he doesn't even know that he is meeting his boyfr.how great.
he doesn't even know how i feel abt him.
he doesn't even care that i might be angry.
he doesn't even care how sad i will be.

FUCK MY LIFE.

2010-02-01T02:15:00.001+08:00

limpei got nothing better to do so playing with webcam.

anyway, im going to put on braces.like tomorrow. = no chewing of gummy, ice, whatever for 2 yrs.kknbccb ttm

2010-01-25T01:36:00.001+08:00

baby is sitting beside me trying to bling his
school's thermometer.and he looks so cute!
extremely adorable.

2010-01-22T05:37:00.003+08:00

this is for you baby,

i love you because you're so damn cute.

i just adore you sososososo much :))

but it's time for you to wake up for school.heehee,

good luck in school later eh?missyous.

and you're just sleeping in my room.

hahaha,funneh.

2010-01-18T05:25:00.006+08:00

sndkasdkbsjjjdjhhksaskk

2010-01-18T05:20:00.003+08:00

phew.just spent 3 hrs creating this new blogskin.
although i know that this is extremely plain,
but i like it :D:D .
haven't been updating for a while.but life is great?
except that i barely passed my o'levels.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahas,
but i'm taking it in stride.
anw,for whoever's information,
i'm still with JEFFREY NG YI JIE.
yea we broke up.but that was so 2009.
we're already back tgt and things are awesome. :)
plus he looks so cute sleeping on my bed.
i've gotta crash already.will update soon. :):)
love ya'll.

2010-01-06T08:37:00.001+08:00

well, i'm feeling bloody sian now.
hence,blogging.anws,o lvl results in 5days?
cheebye.die

2009-12-22T17:26:00.004+08:00

well,here comes the few days before that fateful day where i am all emo and feeling ever so fucked up.it's been a year.and time flies indeed.i didn't really have fun last year and neither will i this year.i'm beginning to just detest my birthday more and more.you know why,because i hate my parents.the selfish bunch of fucking arseholes.all they think about is themselves.never once considered how i might feel.yes.they may have doted on me.treated me the best among all of their three children.but what is there to be happy about.they made my sisters dislike me because they were bias.i didn't want all this shit and they HAD to 'bestow' that upon me.how unfair can it get.it may have been out of a good cause,but it certainly isn't ending well.all that resulted was me,being the only son,pressurised so much,that i sink into depression,have bi-polar symptoms.and who is to be blamed?me?people always say that i grudge too much, i think too much,asking me to forgive and forget.but for goodness sake,none of you are me.and you never will be.you can try to understand me but no one will.because i am as complicated as anything can get.

i actually cry when i see parents with their young children on the streets ;held onto so tightly.the young child's innocence.that is something that i yearn but have already lost.i see the smiles on their faces and i envy them.i had wonderful times when i was young.with my grandfather,with my dad.all that is gone,gone forever.nothing anyone do now can retrieve that.i'm bloody crying right now and it sucks.it really sucks to feel this way.nobody has any idea how much i hate my birthday.17 years ago.on 24thdecember 1992.i came onto this world.here i am 17 years later.cursing the day i was born.people always say that i'm immature, stubborn, childish or what have you.but nobody understands how i feel.they don't understand how much i hate my life.they don't know what i've been deprived of over the years.all they know is to criticize and criticize.is that all i am to everyone?so detestable,un-liked by all?you may say that i'm overly-sensitive.but my senses are seldom wrong.people don't realise how i do not fit in to the society.but when i finally found a group of people whom i thought i could call 'friends',they proved me wrong once again.in this world,i trust no one.this is a world full of lies,secrecy,betrayal,hypocrisy.well at least this is the world i'm living in.

but anyway,i will be working on that day.just gonna try to forget all the shit and drama that has been happening.drowning myself in work is better than drowning in alcohol.

2009-11-24T09:36:00.004+08:00

24thNOVEMBER2009

well,haven't been updating my blog for a long time.
i guess no one visits this site anymore do they?
i'll bring life back then! :D:D
i'm happy with my life right now.
but another thing.my birthday in exactly one month,
and i guess people who knows me well understands my hate
for my birthday.well,it's mostly because of them.
i haven't celebrated my birthday since like 7 years ago?
last year was an exception.but the feeling gets worst each time.
anyway,just for updates to random people,
i'm currently homeless and family-less.and yes it was my choice.
call me a coward or say that i'm running away from problems.
i don't really care.the more you don't believe that i can do it,
the more i will be insistent and i will prove it to you.
as i've said before,if there's a will, there's a way.
nothing can stop me this time.going back will only be an act of
cowardice to me.i don't need all these shit.
they should have treasured me when i was still at that shit hole.
not when i left and they feel "remorseful", "regret"
want me to go back?fat hope.well, i might consider it when you
-give me 1000 singapore dollars for allowance each month,
-hire a maid to clear the mess that i'll make in my room,
-let my boyfriend stay over at that place for as long as he likes,
-and accept me for who i am.

i bet that you can fufill none of these.correct me if i'm wrong.
for people as money-faced as you people,i can just dream on right?
hahas,i don't want this.so if you want,you come to me.don't send me
mushy text messages begging me to go home.sorry to say,i won't
entertain things like that.call me disrespectful, unfillial,
a brat, cruel, whatever you people want to say.this what what you
brought up.you only have youselves to blame.i don't give a shit. :D:D
i simply mean, my ex-parents suck.thanks for giving birth to me uh.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

2009-10-19T16:02:00.003+08:00

19thOCTOBER2009

some people just have nothing better to do don't they?
they spam people just because they have unlimited SMSes?
what DOUCHEBAGS AND S-E-I-S-S-U-P :D:D
fuck off BABEsxzsxszs.but if you want, BRING IT ON.
your PAPA ain't afraid of you.come on girlygirls.
manwhores.flap your pussy wings and come to PAPA.
I LOVE GAMES,TTM.hairyvaginas.lick my balls bitch.

2009-10-10T15:06:00.002+08:00

10thOCTOBER2009

i'm back to blogging here.but not as detailed luh.
hahas,life's been fine,SCHOOL'S OUT! YAYNESS!
BABY AND I ARE GOOD.LOVE'S INTHAIR <3

2009-10-05T20:54:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0QNHzx_oHwA

2009-09-28T23:57:00.003+08:00

28thSEPTEMBER2009

i love my silly boy.

i'll no longer be posting on blogger as often alr.

i have a new blog.one of only some will know of.

it'll be as private as it can be and i'll be more precise about

my life there.blogger is boring and th people reading sucks.

so,TATA for now.

2009-09-27T14:48:00.003+08:00

27thSEPTEMBER2009

i've got a rotting blog like serious.

hmms,don't wanna talk about a lot of things

but i have my mind filled with'em.

it's so fucking irritating and it kills me.

another 2 weeks of school and it's be self study.

is my 6 points still achievable?hopefully.haha,

for now,TATA.

2009-09-21T00:15:00.002+08:00

21stSEPTEMBER2009

haven't been blogging because i've had fucking sore eyes

since tuesday.seen 2 doctors,no much of any use.

red as anything.irritating as hell.will update thoroughly

when i'm feeling better.till then :D:D

2009-09-13T14:35:00.004+08:00

13thSEPTEMBER2009

hey fellow earthlings.

i'm back from BATAM-indonesia.

missed me??actually it wasn't sosososo amazing.

but i had fun :D:D of course i did.without having

to care about all the shit holes in Singapore.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

had a great time with beeeee hazel and meichen(bee's cousin)

the things over there are like effing cheap?

super!hahas,and it seems like they have free-flow of

imitation goods over there.imagine.louis vuitton

and gucci on sale.being left on WAGONS.with all the

aunties flipping the bags all around.amusing much?

didn't buy much.spent most money on food.

got a watch for myself though.10 bucks.

damn chio.hahas.had some squabbles with beee.

but we're good.and one more thing.the ciggerates

there are cheap untillllllll.imagine.2 sing dollars.

like WTF TTM right.lols,and we,being kiasu singaporeans,

bravely bought 4 packets.likka stupid right.in the end,

we couldn't finish all and had to throw some away.

but who cares?it's like 10 cents/stick.hahahs.

limbei hafta sleep already.going back to that fucking place

tomorrow.not one bit anticipating.whatever. :D:D

seeyou soon BABY.miss you

2009-09-10T00:05:00.004+08:00

10thSEPTEMBER2009

had an amazing day with PEGUIN,baby,FANGJIE,HAZEL,EUNICE and PIAOJIE

hahas,yea.did a new tattoo on my wrist.planning to get a few more over these few weeks.

hmms,samson.in some indianii kinda letterings.coolio much?hahas,went for tattoo,

dinner at CHOMPCHOMP,chilled at ICE3.wonderful day.simply wonderful.

anyway,i'll be heading off for BATAM tomorrow afternoon.4 days trip.will be back on SUNDAY.

finally,i'll be able to leave this MAJOR FUCKED UP SMALL ISlAND for a short escape.

to a better place.will be accomodated at BEEEEEE's crib.effing excited siol! but still,

LIFE SUCKS.penguin knows best! hhahas.nevertheless,penguin 'purchased' a diamond

on her neck.likka cute only??HAHA,eh!value for money hor.like a DIAMOND for life! hahas.

like i'm so effing enthu now,pardon my weird expressions.LOLLOLLOL.

anyone wants to get anything,just drop me a text.LOVE ALL.byebyes.

hopefully i can get to use internet over there.BABY is bringing his notebook. :D:D

2009-09-08T23:38:00.002+08:00

9thsepember2009

these few days have been wonderful.

except for some illogical issues that popped up.

extremely meaningless.

had fun with XINYI that penguin.

ate a lottttt with her.hahas,

i'm HAPPY with beee.

veryvery happy.i'll kill

anyone who tries to break us up.

including my parents.

i will break their limbs,

skin their bodies.

scrape their bones.

cook their meat.

all these while they're slowly bleeding to death.

try me people,just try.

other then this gruesome thoughts i'm having in my head,

i'll be heading to BATAM in indonesia for the weekends i suppose.

i'll be back to that bloody school in a couple of days.

so i wanna enjoy myself entirely this week.

last week of clubbing for me aswell.

hopefully i can sneak out sometimes.

hmms,LIFE SUCKS.hor xinyi?

hahahas,prolly gonna tatto myself again these few days.

my name,and a star.LIMBEI EFFING RICH CANNOT AH?lols.

like real only.i'm mister POOR TTM lor.nabei

and will tattoo my arm on my next monthsary with beeee.

i'm gonna remember this relationship forever.

still thinking what i should put.but def no names.

superstitious larhhhs.JEFFREY NYJ will probably

be my first and last boyfriend.HAHA,

i love him like nothing else.

so many people asking me out tomorrow

but i dunno who to go with.TMD.

and happy 09/09/09.

lotsa people gonna get married today.

bless all th couples with eternal maritial bliss! hahas.

LOVE ALL.<3<3

2009-09-02T15:08:00.003+08:00

2ndSEPTEMBER2009

TODAY IS A VERY SPECIAL DAY :D:D:D
IT'S THE FIRST MONTHSARY I'VE EVER HAD WITH ANYONE.
AND THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE IS MY BABY,JEFFREYnyj

HAPPY MONTHSARY BABY.

I LOVE YOU MUCHMUCHMUCH,HOPE YOU'LL LOVE ME THE SAME.TIME PASSES REAL FAST.ONE MONTH JUST FLEW PAST LIKE THAT.WE'VE HAD AN AMAZING MONTH,WITH BOTH UPs AND DOWNs.BUT WE'VE PULLED THROUGH.AND I BELIEVE THAT WE WILL TILL THE END OF TIME.I WANT TO BE WITH YOU FOREVER.EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THAT IT IS PRACTICALLY IMPOSSIBLE FOR THAT TO HAPPEN,I HOPE IT WILL.YOU ARE MY LIFE BABY,IF YOU WE'RE TO LEAVE ME SUDDENLY,I PROMISE TO KILL MYSELF.HAHAHA,OMGOODNESS.I'M SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY!AND YES I AM.LASTLY,

I LOVE YOU TTM. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox :D:D

2009-08-31T16:09:00.002+08:00

31stAUGUST2009

what a humongous MISUNDERSTANDING. :D
glad that everything is sorted out.well,maybe just
between us and him but not the other TWO.
heehee

2009-08-30T18:51:00.005+08:00

30thAUGUST2009

i guess it's all over.
ohyea.i almost forgot that i've been
OUT of the 'group' for such a long time already.
felt way better not being with people who
only thinks that they are correct and everyone else
is at fault.this is LAME.real lame.
and i think those people i'm talking about
knows themselves best don't they?
OBVIOUSLY,when 2 parties quarrel,
they will want to win.nobody wants to lose
naturally.that is the main purpose of a quarrel
actually.eventually,somebody has to give in and
apologize.but this time around,
i doubt so.HEEHEE.true.how very true indeed.

"you guys came into our lives, gave us so much troubles, ruined our friendships, left and even took my bestfriend away. How about that? "

i don't want to say anymore.
but i'm glad that we really saw some truth. :D
who really cares for who?i'm in a dilemma.

2009-08-29T21:22:00.003+08:00

29thAUGUST2009

was supposed to end work at 1130 today.
but guess where am i now?
i'm at orchard road's concorde hotel's
speedy lan shop. :D:D:D
i am actually browsing throuh my FRIEND'S
blogs.i am truly DISGUSTED.
who were the ones who sparked all these shit?
hmms,me?my BOYFRIEND?my cousins?
please.for goodness sake!
i'm also extremely amused by some peoples'
plain stupidity.HEEHEEHEE.
leaving my cousins drunk like fuck in our
care just because you guys felt that it was boring?
did you guys ever spared a thought for us?
HELLO?u were the ones who wanted to go home.
not USSSSSSS! did it even go through your minds
that we might be wanting to continue clubbing?
not saying that my cousins are burdens,
we seriously don't mind taking care of them .
but it's a matter of principle !
you brought them out, you bring them home.

Angelina: is there a need to put things this way!?

is there a need to put things this way ?!
Why not say, if you're not happy with what we're feeling
and expressing on our blogs,come straight to the point as well and not
BEAT ABOUT the bush and talk to us
straight in the face?
ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DAMAGES YOURSELF?hmms,
it puzzles me.really :D:D:D:D

and my good fllendd FABIAN,
ask yourself this okay?
is it really worth it?
i'm not protecting my BOYFRIEND.
or maybe i am.but still,
after being 'BESTFRIENDS'
WITH MY COUSIN FOR SO LONG,
6yrs or 5yrs as compared to 3months?
FUNNEH MUCH?
YOU MAY THINK THAT IT IS WORTH IT.
BUT JUST A PIECE OF ADVICE.
STOP BEING DELUSIONAL :)

thanks a lot.and angel,
you can call me and we shall talk. :D

and happybirthdayeugene.

2009-08-25T00:48:00.004+08:00

25thAUGUST2009

been a week since i've posted.

quite a lot happened between

these 7 days,

and that includes 2 movies.

last house on the left and ORPHAN.

LHOTL was amazing. rating, 4/5

orphan was just alright. 3/5

LHOTL wasn't exactly a horror movie.

more of a thriller plus comedy for me.

damn nice. :D:D:D

had loads of fun with BEEEEEEEE.

<3<3<3

i don't care what people have to say

about me and JEFFREYnyj because i love him SERIOUSLY.

whtever comments you guys have,just keep it to yourself

alrights?i've seen this coming but i don't really care much.

my family doesn't even say much about this issue and

some nameless people who have nothing to do comes

to my blog and write loads of shit.GAL people. :D:D

byelabyela.i'm gonna crash! biies.LOL

2009-08-18T21:40:00.003+08:00

went for movie again last night with Dagu and beeeeeee.

watch G.I JOE. great movie i would say.

the plot,graphics and all th action! wonderful.hahas,

beeeeeee agreed that th movie was nice as well.HAHA.

who was th one who didn't wanna watch? SLAPS YOU.

hahahaas,love you TTM okay?heehee,anyways

i have a kitten now.found him on the streets around

bukitbatok yesterday and decided to bring him home.

a young kitten.but already a meat eater.hahas,damn cute.

his name is HEIHEI anyway.he is downstairs with the other

cats who are roaming around my estate now.and he already made

some friends with other kittens.hate it when my mum disallows

animals in the house.brought him back home last night

left him down stairs when i was about to sleep and brought

him up again when i woke up.hahas,i put my loose sexband

around his neck to recognise him.and he's greyish black anws,

effing cute.will be bringing him home again later.

after my evil mum goes to bed.hahahas.i've made a bed for him

alr.made from my old shoe box with my old pencil case as pillow.

he has his toys already too! hahas.he's my cat! :D:D finally i have a pet

again after all my hamhams died.peektures with beeeee.but i do have

some with me. enjoy my cutecute HEIHEI.anws,i thought he was a girl

until my sister told me.his name was originally called MIMI.

beeeeeeee thought of that name.but it's too GAY alr la.

cannot.HEIHEI sounds much better.HEEHEE.

2009-08-16T13:56:00.006+08:00

my son is so cute :D

what did i do to you for you to treat me like that?

some people are just so hard to understand.

you cannot say i never tried.but it just doesn't work.

seriously,it's not my fault.it was never my fault.

what did i do?was that simple "I HATE THEM"

so offensive?or was it me getting together

with my boyfriend?was it jealousy that sparked

all these shit?was it anger?over what?i have

entirely no clue.what are your arguments for being

angry with me?or even disappointed?this is rubbish.

this whole issue is nonsensical.HELLO! i have my own

life to live.i have my own decisions to make.i ain't nobody's

dog.so stop trying to think that you have a say in my life.

maybe you did.but no longer.if you want to say disappointed,

i should be the one feeling that way.who was the one who said that

"it's amazing how you can spoil and break whatever you built in one day"

sad to say,but the same goes to you.it never applied to what i have done.

you should really do some self reflection.everything is about

YOUYOUYOU and more yous.have you thought of how others might feel?

why do you always have to get your way in life?you were a good friend.

but now? BYE.i know that you can let go easily.or maybe you

have already done so.it's fine with me you know?

i don't need care,concern or love in this kinda manner.

and yes,i am talking about you.TZWE

2009-08-16T13:38:00.007+08:00

16thAUGUST2009

WENT FOR MOVIES IN TOWN LAST NIGHT
WATCHED UP.DIDN'T WANNA WATCH IT INITIALLY
CUZ IT LOOKED EFFING CHILDISH.BUT THE MOVIE
WAS RATHER INTERESTING.STRONGLY RECOMMENDED.
DID SOMETHING THAT ONLY tingsis,bee and I know.HEEHEE.
PINKPINKPINKPINKPINKPINKPINKPINKPINKPINKPINKPINK.

2009-08-15T05:05:00.002+08:00

WONDERFUL NIGHT I WOULD SAY,IT'S MY FIRST DATE WITH BEEE. :D

LIKE IT'S JUST THE BOTH OF US.PURE FUN AND HAPPINESS.HAVEN'T

BEEN FEELING GOOD FOR A WHILE AND BEE JUST MADE MY DAY.

I BET SOME PEOPLE WILL NEVER EXPERIENCE SUCH JOY.NEVERTHELESS,

I'M TIRED. MISS YOU LOTS JEFFREY NGYIJIE.

2009-08-11T23:55:00.005+08:00

it's becoming a HOBBY,

pain is nothing.it's the thrill.

heehee,life has been fine.REAL FINE.

have been working at CKJ part-time for a while alr.

but know what?i'll get my pay only at the and of SEPTEMBER.

fuckedup much?NABEIs,i have birthdays coming up okay!

bo lui life sucks to the max.lucky i have BEEEEE to keep me company.

love you to the MAX.not lust,not desperation,just LOVE.

some people just don't get that FACT don't they?it's a little irritating.

GAOYUXIANG is going back to school tomorrow for his PRELIM examinations.

studied?NOPE.not one bit.but i don't really give a shit. :D:D

i'll really start in october.i know i'm not extremely capable or clever.

but i'll just start a crash course then.use up every bit of brain juice left in me.

for my 6 points.i can do it.JUST WAIT AND SEE.

but for now till then,i'll be working and earning cash for myself.

working is not that bad really.i like working life way better than school.

okays,i hafta crash already.school at 720 tomorrow.

2009-08-10T15:14:00.002+08:00

LOLs, been 5 days since i've last posted.

a lot happened these few days but at least

i'm through with all the shit.

and yes! i'm attached to JeffreyNgYiJie.

i'm officially bisexual.say what you want.

i don't give a shit.I LOVE HIM and that's a fact.

my BABY is so cute. :D:D:D we've been through a lot.

more than anyone of you can imagine.but no matter what,

we'll hang on.yea baby?because there are NO BOUNDARIES.

ILY;nyj

2009-08-05T00:47:00.001+08:00

jeffrey,eugene,fabian =jef three more to go, kimberly,siokyit,angelina.=ksa. LOVE <3

2009-08-04T19:49:00.001+08:00

NO BOUNDARIES.

2009-08-04T17:28:00.004+08:00

i know this is nothing as compared to what some of u have attempted.it's afterall my first,
this is my way of telling you iloveyou.
JNYJ

2009-08-04T03:25:00.001+08:00

I LOVE MY BABY <3

2009-08-02T23:07:00.002+08:00

just leave me alone for now alrights? EVERYONE.

i will not use my phone for messages any longer for the

time being.no phone calls either.except for when in emergency.

i just wanna take a break.i know that i only have myself to blame

for digging my own grave and jumping in.but just leave it be alright?

it's my life.and no one has any say in this life except for me. :D:D

let me rest or just rot alright! THANKYOU EVERYONE.

for giving me the most fucked up day of my life! 2ndAugust2009,

i'll remember.

2009-08-01T14:20:00.002+08:00

should i go clubbing later?ew,that feeling of being broke sucks.

siansation to th MAX!! :D:D:D .

tmd,this feeling is getting wierder bytheminute. FUCK

2009-07-31T13:10:00.000+08:00

FUCK.I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO I AM NOW. :D:D:D

2009-07-30T20:36:00.001+08:00

hi everyone :D:D this is my new son . GIMO
given to me by my bro.thanks eh :D:D
it's a bannana btw,and a cute one.

2009-07-30T03:36:00.000+08:00

2009-07-30T00:14:00.001+08:00

I ABSOLUTELY LOVE MY LABRET AND EYEBROW PIERCINGS :D:D:D

2009-07-29T23:42:00.003+08:00

life is like fucking boring?
sianzxzxzxzx much?
anws,i've been shortlisted for my DPA application.
ngeeann polytechnic's MASS COMMUNICATION.
i hope that i can ace my interview tomorrow.
i'm feeling very nervous.LIKE omgosh.
i went back to school today for chem practical.
sucked.LOLS, i'll be going back again later on to collect my
result slips for the DPA interview. :D:D wishmeluck

2009-07-27T00:56:00.000+08:00

2009-07-26T16:44:00.002+08:00

some people just have nothing better to do.

SERIOUSLY.

i'm trying not to.but don't do things to make me

suspect that you're behind all this shit.

PLEASE.

2009-07-24T16:02:00.000+08:00

i so cute.LOLS

2009-07-24T15:51:00.001+08:00

clubbing is getting sian alr :D:D

tmd,i have to study already.

no more late nights.FUCK

but i've been feeling way better recently.

NO SCHOOL :D jealous much?

2009-07-22T20:26:00.003+08:00

once, a wise man said.

"what you don't understand,you don't posses."

so if i had a choice,can i choose not to understand pain?

pain in every single aspect is killing me. tired,drained.

just wanna rest in peace.FOREVER.

2009-07-19T06:17:00.003+08:00

i don't deserve your care and concern.REALLY.

i don't know why you're so good to me but i'm happy at least

someone genuinely cares.

i don't know what to tell you because i really have nothing to say.

maybe i do, but i don't know how to put it.

and it's nothing about all of you guys. it's me. all me.

i'm crazy, i'm stupid, i'm selfish, i'm dumb.

just leave me alone will you?

maybe i'll really regret it.but i rather you guys not care.

all your worries for me just makes me feel more and more like a FUCKING burden.

when i'm with you people, all i want to do is to have fun have fun and have more fun.

but i've been a fucking spoiler.and i have no choice.

it's not like i can control myself.

maybe nothing was wrong with me.

but after all the visits to my teachers, my counsellor andthat psychiatrist, i'm beginning to think that i'm a lunatic.

i just feel fucking down all the time.

not just sometimes when my face occasionally changes.

i just try and try so hard to put that smile on.

but deep down,i'm bleeding. crying. killing myself.

like fuck.i don't know how to face you guys.

seriously.so i think i'll just live my life alone.

i know that you people care.but just leave it will you?

i'm feeling so depressed all the time, i'm no longer afraid of dying.

i went to the 13th level just now and looked down.i no longer had that chilly feeling running down my spine.i think i'm just too accomodated to looking from high buildings thinking if i should just end my life.i wanted to.

that very instance when i was running.

thoughts raced through my mind as i ran from you.

i just felt so effing useless.what was i running from? you? no!

i was running away from my problems!but what are they?

i don't know.how can i tell you about them when i don't even know myself?

when i said 'i don't know.', i meant it.

i'm really clueless about myself.you asked me how i felt.

it was all nothing.i felt absolutely nothing.

like a numb emptiness that lurks there forever and just won't budge.

i was super angry with myself so i ran.SORRY bro. it had nothing to do with you.

you shouldn't feel bad either. if i really take my own life someday, just remember me as the cheerful little bro that you had. :D:D:D hahas. LYG. <3

but now,i'll just have to try and live this life full of misery and anguish.

if life was fuckable, i'll fuck it every single day.

2009-07-17T19:46:00.002+08:00

I PRAY THAT SOMEONE KILLS ME.

I'M NOT AFRAID TO DIE.I JUST DON'T WANT PAIN.

ANYONE?YOU HATE ME?JUST KILL ME.

I DON'T WANNA CARRY ON ANYMORE.

I KNOW I'M A COWARD.SO WHAT?SOME PEOPLE

OUGHT TO SUCK THEIR OWN BALLS.

PLEASE.I BEG OF YOU :D:D:D I'LL LOVE YOU TO THE MAX.

JUST LET ME DIE

2009-07-12T22:59:00.003+08:00

FUCK school.

i haven't been having any motivations to go school,

seriously,it sucks. studying is detestable. FOR GOODNESS SAKE!

if only i can just stay home and do my own revision.

fucking school mates killing me.

irritating as hell.

hope tomorrow will be a better day,

fingers crossed. :D

2009-07-10T05:49:00.002+08:00

just came back from clubbing at ZOUK:herstory.

had lotsa fun.tried new drinks like sex on th beach,apple shooters and flaming lambo.

th party was great :D:D:D th music wonderful th company of flends, AWESOME.

too bad i'm having school today. NABEIS.. if not i'll still be hanging with them.

and i can't sleep now cuz my DAD is on my bed. HMMP.just fuck school,fuck life,fuck classmates. :D i'll immediately come home and crash after school tomorrow. SUCKS.

2009-07-08T17:58:00.000+08:00

2009-07-08T17:52:00.000+08:00

JUST SHUT UP AND KISSMYASS. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

2009-07-03T22:25:00.002+08:00

so i did go CLUB yesterday.

had lotsa fun with mmy BUDDIES :D:D

drinking,dancing and just having plain FUN!

but it was a fucking disaster at school today.

LOLS,slept for about an hour or so in class.

i wasn't being lazy OKAY. i had a free period.

hahas,know what? i cabbed home after school.

fucking waste money but bobian ma. since limbei so tired.

stay home FRIDAY NIGHTS sucks. hopefully going out tommorrow?

start studying yo!! :D:D

2009-07-02T13:05:00.003+08:00

OKAY,so limbei got 2 days MC

jealous mmuch?? hahas,

whatever larhzxzx. JUST SUCKIT.

might be clubbing tonight.not sure ley.

there'll still be school tomorrow.

_l_ _l_ _l_ _l_ _l_ _l_ _l_ _l_ _l_ _l_

FUCK.

2009-06-28T23:40:00.007+08:00

alrights, so school is starting

officially in like 6 hours? hmms, FUCKIT. :D

lalalas,th holidays were like totally wasted?

assignments not completed revisions not done.SIAN

but i loved it cos i met new flennds LIKE,

ANGELINA KOH JIA YAN <3

EUGENE TAN ZE WEI <3my kor.

and so, i'm going to begin my quest for th six A1s
that i hope to achieve for my O lvls, JIAYOU la.
less time for play,more time for studies :D:D:D
lastly,FUCK SCHOOL!BIGTIME.

2009-06-27T18:25:00.002+08:00

life is being sucha WHORE.

the holidays are ending in like ONE day? wtheck.

fucking spoil mood.so i swear to enjoy myself today

no matter what! no more fucking irritating incidents are gonna happen.

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

2009-06-25T02:51:00.001+08:00

2009-06-24T03:33:00.003+08:00

been over at fabian's place for th past few days
had lotsa fun just chilling and joking around.
i'm going to really start studying tomorrow on.
i cannot bear to waste anymore time.
th clock is ticking and soon it'll be th o lvls,
i hafta do well no matter what.so,i've gotta put in my effort.
no more late nights for me once th hols are over.
this is th last year alr,i'll give it all i 've got and
will achieve my desired results,i know
SAMSON GAO YUXIANG, you can do it! :D

2009-06-21T19:46:00.002+08:00

i'm just feeling super eff-ed up.

have been feeling so for a few days alr.

i mean,life sucks.like who doesn't agree?

seriously,i hate it.

you know that kinda feeling that just makes you feel

like kicking something,punching the wall,killing someone

for no apparent reason.and yes! that's how i have been feeling.

i don't know why,but the feeling is extremely irritating.

which makes me feel annoyed over every single thing.

if i'm just standing there keeping my mouth shut,

just fucking stay away from me.

cause i'll be trying to calm myself down

and any disruptions would seriously spike me.

but still,i'll hafta say sorry to those i may have upset

because of my lousy feeling.SORRY EH :D

2009-06-20T01:45:00.000+08:00

fucking cam-whored. but nice la the pics, ccuz limbei was damn shagged.haha

2009-06-19T09:42:00.001+08:00

i love this pic; belle and i looked great! hahas jus that QAH looked a little SPASTIC.
anyways, LIMBEI just cut my hair today.AND IT'S SUPER UN-chio.so had to post
some over-dued peektures. :D

2009-06-18T00:35:00.002+08:00

yup,

so i eventually went to sentosa earlier on!

it was belle's birthday,took a hell load of

effing nice pictures.LOL.

anyway,

it's my first time not sleeping for more than

a day and i'm still not tired. to be precise,

it's been like 31 hours since i last lay on any bed.

it feels good to be home! ahas,

imagine playing l4d through the night and

once you get back home,you hafta leave for sentosa!

tiring much? another thing.i did not go into the sea

as i was afraid that the sea water would damage

my tattoo.and i applied a hefty amount of sun block

around my tattoo.like totally lame..LOLS,

whatever it is, i had a great time with my flennds! hahs.

i'll probably sleep for one whole day?!

seeya guys tommorow at PLAY club for ladies night! :D

2009-06-13T14:37:00.002+08:00

i'm getting FATTER and FATTER by the minute. F-U-C-K

hafta like slim down?? 10kg also happy :D

FAMILY chalet tomorrow, not anticipating.

will obviously be a total bore with all th effing adults.

i believe that the second day would be much better with

AKU's FLLENNDS, :D:D

2009-06-12T16:32:00.003+08:00

just woke up.

the holidays have been rather happening for me.

at least i feel that way,hahas.

anyways, clubbed at ZOUK yesterday.

and yes.NOT UNDERAGED party.

hate those kinda things.

i swear i'll never want to go to an underaged party

unless i'm obliged to.it was extremely FUN.

unlike underaged parties,we had plenty space.

NOT PACKED, NOT STINKY, NOT STICKY!

hahas.and i got to dance like CRAZY! been sucha long time.

but still,no more partying for me once the week is over.

study STUDY! o levels.. totally stress FACTOR.

i'll probably club for like two more times

before this EFFING short june hols are over?

HMMMS,

2009-06-10T14:52:00.000+08:00

totally no inspiration to blog.LALAS,
whatever. SERIOUSLY

2009-06-08T16:28:00.002+08:00

clubbing yesterday was totally sian-ed.

i swear i will never go for under age parties ever again.

except for some perks and happy moments,it totally sucked.

whatever la. NOBODY WANTS ME. :D

2009-06-07T02:52:00.003+08:00

aku's tattoo is damn chio.got a labret piercing too.officially BROKE? lol,

the tattoo was 180 and de piercing was 55. die only. bo lui liaos. FUCK.

maybe i'll like you? silly girl.