storyofmylife.♥

My name is SAMSON.AXELANDER KO
24THDECEMBER1992

FUCK.I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO I AM NOW. :D:D:D

hi everyone :D:D this is my new son . GIMO
given to me by my bro.thanks eh :D:D
it's a bannana btw,and a cute one.

I ABSOLUTELY LOVE MY LABRET AND EYEBROW PIERCINGS :D:D:D

life is like fucking boring?
sianzxzxzxzx much?
anws,i've been shortlisted for my DPA application.
ngeeann polytechnic's MASS COMMUNICATION.
i hope that i can ace my interview tomorrow.
i'm feeling very nervous.LIKE omgosh.
i went back to school today for chem practical.
sucked.LOLS, i'll be going back again later on to collect my
result slips for the DPA interview. :D:D wishmeluck

some people just have nothing better to do.

i'm trying not to.but don't do things to make me

suspect that you're behind all this shit.

clubbing is getting sian alr :D:D

tmd,i have to study already.

no more late nights.FUCK

but i've been feeling way better recently.

NO SCHOOL :D jealous much?

once, a wise man said.

"what you don't understand,you don't posses."

so if i had a choice,can i choose not to understand pain?

pain in every single aspect is killing me. tired,drained.

just wanna rest in peace.FOREVER.

i don't deserve your care and concern.REALLY.

i don't know why you're so good to me but i'm happy at least

someone genuinely cares.

i don't know what to tell you because i really have nothing to say.

maybe i do, but i don't know how to put it.

and it's nothing about all of you guys. it's me. all me.

i'm crazy, i'm stupid, i'm selfish, i'm dumb.

just leave me alone will you?

maybe i'll really regret it.but i rather you guys not care.

all your worries for me just makes me feel more and more like a FUCKING burden.

when i'm with you people, all i want to do is to have fun have fun and have more fun.

but i've been a fucking spoiler.and i have no choice.

it's not like i can control myself.

maybe nothing was wrong with me.

but after all the visits to my teachers, my counsellor andthat psychiatrist, i'm beginning to think that i'm a lunatic.

i just feel fucking down all the time.

not just sometimes when my face occasionally changes.

i just try and try so hard to put that smile on.

but deep down,i'm bleeding. crying. killing myself.

like fuck.i don't know how to face you guys.

seriously.so i think i'll just live my life alone.

i know that you people care.but just leave it will you?

i'm feeling so depressed all the time, i'm no longer afraid of dying.

i went to the 13th level just now and looked down.i no longer had that chilly feeling running down my spine.i think i'm just too accomodated to looking from high buildings thinking if i should just end my life.i wanted to.

that very instance when i was running.

thoughts raced through my mind as i ran from you.

i just felt so effing useless.what was i running from? you? no!

i was running away from my problems!but what are they?

i don't know.how can i tell you about them when i don't even know myself?

when i said 'i don't know.', i meant it.

i'm really clueless about myself.you asked me how i felt.

it was all nothing.i felt absolutely nothing.

like a numb emptiness that lurks there forever and just won't budge.

i was super angry with myself so i ran.SORRY bro. it had nothing to do with you.

you shouldn't feel bad either. if i really take my own life someday, just remember me as the cheerful little bro that you had. :D:D:D hahas. LYG. <3

but now,i'll just have to try and live this life full of misery and anguish.

if life was fuckable, i'll fuck it every single day.

I PRAY THAT SOMEONE KILLS ME.

I'M NOT AFRAID TO DIE.I JUST DON'T WANT PAIN.

ANYONE?YOU HATE ME?JUST KILL ME.

I DON'T WANNA CARRY ON ANYMORE.

I KNOW I'M A COWARD.SO WHAT?SOME PEOPLE

OUGHT TO SUCK THEIR OWN BALLS.

PLEASE.I BEG OF YOU :D:D:D I'LL LOVE YOU TO THE MAX.

i haven't been having any motivations to go school,

seriously,it sucks. studying is detestable. FOR GOODNESS SAKE!

if only i can just stay home and do my own revision.

fucking school mates killing me.

hope tomorrow will be a better day,

just came back from clubbing at ZOUK:herstory.

had lotsa fun.tried new drinks like sex on th beach,apple shooters and flaming lambo.

th party was great :D:D:D th music wonderful th company of flends, AWESOME.

too bad i'm having school today. NABEIS.. if not i'll still be hanging with them.

and i can't sleep now cuz my DAD is on my bed. HMMP.just fuck school,fuck life,fuck classmates. :D i'll immediately come home and crash after school tomorrow. SUCKS.

JUST SHUT UP AND KISSMYASS. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

so i did go CLUB yesterday.

had lotsa fun with mmy BUDDIES :D:D

drinking,dancing and just having plain FUN!

but it was a fucking disaster at school today.

LOLS,slept for about an hour or so in class.

i wasn't being lazy OKAY. i had a free period.

hahas,know what? i cabbed home after school.

fucking waste money but bobian ma. since limbei so tired.

stay home FRIDAY NIGHTS sucks. hopefully going out tommorrow?

start studying yo!! :D:D

OKAY,so limbei got 2 days MC

jealous mmuch?? hahas,

whatever larhzxzx. JUST SUCKIT.

might be clubbing tonight.not sure ley.

there'll still be school tomorrow.

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