4 days to my birthday.but i'm not feeling any better. still do not have any idea of how i'm going to celebrate my birthday. guess that i would not be celebrating then,SIGH. 15 years of age already and i'm still like that.when will i learn. to be a grown up?i'm childish.thank you people from trying to cheer me up.but i guess i'm like that.as stubborn as a mule. refusing to heed any advises.this is me.this is who i am. an asshole.a useless being.i am not worth anything. stop caring about me.i do not deserve your care and concerns. let me be alone.to live in my own world.let me rot. and be that emo-ing kid that no one cares about.FINE.be that way. i do not intend to want anyone to care about me. i do not need birthday presents.i'm just a load of bull-shit. if you want just give.i'm not being forceful.if you do not want den don't i don't care.i'm left all alone and i like it.please do not pry into this world i'm living in.do not give a damn of me,my life and everything. i do not need anyone.although i hate being alone, i hate people around me too.i do have split personalities.you may see one side of me and you may know the other side.get rough with me and i'll be rough with you.i do not care a bit about myself. so,do not care about me,i'm hopeless.a good for nothing.that's who i am. who cares,i don't.
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